Day 1 ~ Expectations
Expectations of my Progress
“Write out three tangible, measurable statements that would indicate progress is being made for you.”
1. Enjoying some of the things he enjoy and without complaint
2. Accepting him for where he is now and for who he is now without being judgmental
3. Becoming more of a listener and responding accordingly verses just hearing.
I have to admit day 1 was challenging. I thought Nina would be easy on us but she went right in…self-reflection. I have to admit that there are more that I could have listed but as I was meditating I could hear my husband’s voice. “You never do things I like to do.” He likes action, sci-fi and horror type of movies. Me, not so much. I love comedy, romance and drama type of movies. He is also into buying and selling cars and has asked if I would help with the paperwork side of things. I haven’t yielded to this request as of yet. Why? It’s not my thing but now that I’m committed to this challenge, I’ll be in prayer.
Secondly, I find myself pushing him to be someone who he hasn’t matured to be as of yet. Does that make sense? I want so badly for him to walk in his role of a godly man, husband and father. But until this is something he desires, I’m only frustrating myself trying to force the process of my expectation. Please pray with me.
Thirdly, often when he is trying to communicate with me, what irritates him the most is that I don’t respond with an answer of some sort. Or I don’t give him my undivided attention. I usually say, “I don’t have to look at you. I can do two things at one time. I hear you.” But what he needs from me is to stop what I’m doing and focus on what is concerning him at that moment AND to respond.
Wow! What a journey today. I pray that today’s self-reflection made you think and that you didn’t just jot down something to say you completed the task. It really is so much more than that. Allow God to do a great work in you. But He can only do it if you be completely honest with Him and yourself.
Yours in Christ,